- Jane Wheeler
The door to 2016 is closing fast, and the crack in the door to 2017 is getting larger – almost large enough to kick it wide open and see what is on the other side.
Wouldn’t that be great? If we could see what 2017 holds in store for us? We could be prepared, we could let others know what is going to happen.
I want to finish 2016 well. I found a prayer that I wrote out to God a little ways back – it is kind of personal – me and God time sharing. But as I re-read it I think it portrays where I am at. I want my first love back with God. I want passion and purpose to resurrect itself and take over again. I want to finish well.
“Father, I repent, confess that I have been living selfishly. My pride and my will have not bowed to You – Please forgive me. I have seen everyone else’s speck but have been oblivious to my log. Lord I have prayed that You would show me exorbitant and lavish love. You already have but I was too blind to see it. Forgive me.
You said that by shutting down and shutting off (my form of self –protection) that I am hardened as well as dead. There is no fertile ground to sow in. Forgive me.
Job said, “though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.” You want me to say “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him and believe that He knows what He is doing and it is okay.”
That Your will might be done on earth, in me, as it is in heaven. Lord let it be and forgive me my hardness, my pride, my selfishness and self-protection. Lord may it truly be true that Your will, not mine be done on earth in me, as it is in heaven. Let me be soft, fertile ground in which You can plant, and grow something beautiful. Then let the reflection of my face shine softly and radiantly, not hard and harsh.
Thank you that You have waited every day for this prodigal daughter to come home; then when You saw me You ran to me with arms wide open – that is exorbitant and lavish love."